Never ever 1st at emolliently fructifying artistry;
delinquently squandering countless sheets of
brilliantly bonded paper; and vibrantly ecstatic
paint,
Never ever 1st at blissfully mellifluous whistling;
preposterously bellowing like a rabid dog; instead of
diffusing into stupendously mesmerizing music,
Never ever 1st at adroitly cunning business; insanely
hobbling into mists of utter meaninglessness; at even
the very tiniest insinuation of dexterously prejudiced
manipulation,
Never ever 1st at insurmountably rapacious
titillation; bizarrely floundering to be even a
mercurial iota aroused; even as boundless tawdry
seductresses danced in gay abandon all around,
Never 1st at the inter-college competitions;
disintegrating into an infinite particles of clammy
nothingness; even before alighting a single foot on
the star studded stage,
Never ever 1st at ingeniously eclectic mimicry; not
even able to remember the cadence of my very own
voice; just an evanescent instant after I
wholeheartedly spoke,
Never ever 1st at exotically tantalizing dance;
penuriously ending up licking deliriously rotten dust
on the floor instead; as the entire world beautifully
cavorted and flirted upon the same,
Never ever 1st at fantastically enamoring magic;
clumsily erasing every bit of line from my own palm;
instead of marvelously portending the future of
countless others instead,
Never ever 1st at exuberantly adventurous
mountain-climbing; sinking an infinite feet beneath my
grave; the moment I tried to clamber up the very first
jaggedly ebullient stone,
Never ever 1st at spreading the essence of timeless
humanity; as the instant I unfurled my mouth to
lecture; indiscriminately communal racialism
mercilessly perpetuated every echelon of the
unsurpassably sensitive society,
Never ever 1st at engendering people to uninhibitedly
laugh; with the entire atmosphere breaking into oceans
of hysterical tears; the instant I tried cracking one
of my best mugged jokes,
Never ever 1st at brilliantly outclassing my
compatriots; being ruthlessly massacred into
worthlessly inane ash; even before I could dream of
venturing into intrepidly exhilarating territory,
Never ever 1st at explicit elocutions and debates;
egregiously shooing away every speck of audience
infront of me; as I disdainfully stuck on the very
first alphabet for hours immemorial,
Never ever 1st at punctiliously synchronizing my
surroundings; with the ambience around me always
resembling a gutter of squalidly abhorrent and
disgustingly rotten tomatoes,
Never ever 1st at vociferously cheering my comrades;
with even the most thunderously reverberating of my
voice miserably stuttering to reach even the chamber
of my sordid mouth; as the entire planet around me
broke into unequivocally untamed celebration,
Never ever 1st at replenishing my bones with luxury;
as even before they holistically stretched themselves
for the same; its silken caress was already gobbled in
entirety by a bunch of parasites around,
Never ever 1st at astoundingly memorizing; as
unprecedented cloudbursts of impregnable sleep
transcended over other conceivable speck in my brain;
making me yawn till even after horizons of infinite
infinity,
Never ever 1st at taking quintessentially euphoric
breath into my lungs; as I obnoxiously wavered and
quavered in the race for “ Survival of the fittest”;
wholesomely devoured by infinite organisms in near
vicinity even before I could blow a single whistle,
But the very 1st one in the boundlessly enchanting
Universe who unassailably conquered every beat of your
heart; the very 1st one on this planet who irrefutably
captured you in the swirl of immortally endless
romance; the very 1st one on this earth who took your
magnificently philanthropic signature on every
blood-dropp of mine; was I; was I; and would for
infinite more births I pray and by the grace of God;
always be I….
(c) (r) copyright-2004, by nikhil parekh. all rights reserved.
